2020 has been a different year.

In this virtual exhibition, I will attempt to reflect
my personal experiences throughout it,
which implicitly relate to the events that
have taken place globally this challenging year.

I will be presenting, in a chronological fashion,
a series of self-portraits which bear the title "As I am today".
They are a testimony of my state of being that particular day.

A wide range of emotions is covered and, as you will see,
they show a rapid rate of change in my personal evolution.

I shall not try to make the connection with 2020's events
explicit, for I believe it is either apparent or non-existent,
and I would rather let you interpret their meaning for yourself.

I have shared the subsequent drawings through
my website and through Instagram after they were made.

I hope you enjoy the works,
and I thank you for your time and attention,
Nil

ANNOUNCEMENT: A physical exhibition of this project happened!
It was in Sant Lluc, in Barcelona, through the 4th - 18th of December.

Some closing remarks:
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When I had finished the last drawing, an idea came to mind
regarding the meaning I feel behind the self-portraits.
Their meaning, their purpose, the reason I do them,
more than to discover different aspects about myself, which I do,
is to come to terms with my own existence. 

I do not know how this may sound to you, but I feel it true for me. As I look out from the canvas or the page, one can imagine me seeing a variety of things: a void, the spectator, myself...

In the most primal way, I am looking at / for myself.
In another, by engaging with you the spectator with my gaze,
I am activating and transmitting the act of seeing to you,
so that in the end the work acts as a mirror and it is you
who comes to terms with your own existence.

​The word awareness also comes to mind. 
This also relates to the previous interpretations
because with these self-portraits I state: I am, I see.
That I am aware of myself and, in some way, also of you.
That with these self-portraits I am making myself aware.

In any case, these are my intents behind the works.

I would love to know your reaction to these works
and your interpretation about them, so consider
sharing them with me by sending me an email at
nilinglisaltes@gmail.com so we may start a conversation.

​​Thank you truly for your time and attention,
Nil